im so fucking lonely. I haven't been asked to leave me house since he came to visit in july. I haven't left the house besides to go to school and work since july. I haven't spoken to anyone really at school until recently when I tried reconnecting with old friends. No matter what I do I just get bailed on. I just get told to my face that they don't actually want to see me or hangout. I don't actually mean anything to anyone besides the few online. But for once I wish I could just comfortably stand next to a friend again and be able to talk and connect with them instead of being the last choice. Literally the one girl who sits with me at lunch is there because she has no one else in our lunch hour she knows. And even then, she prefers skipping hanging out with me and skipping school just to see someone better and more fun. More entertaining. I'm sorry I'm not like that. I'm sorry I'm so needy and depressed and useless. I'm sorry. I regret so many things even if they weren't my fault I regret them happening because it's ruined my life. .
Pearl & MewPearl & Mew2017-10-22Hello, my name is lief, or leaf, or leafy greens. My only goal in life right now is to get out of my cage and to the perceived freedom of the window, at the expense of my lovely nose. And your ear drums as I cry for hours letting you know how much I need the window to freedom https://scontent.cdninstagram.com/t51.2885-15/e35/22793647_276991129477363_7596505615598354432_n.jpg2017-10-22
Kitty KuriosityKitty Kuriosity2017-10-22http://www.kittyskuriosities.c kittenplay at the park! https://scontent.cdninstagram.com/t51.2885-15/e15/22708849_1730169833721930_4115693896481112064_n.jpg2017-10-22
JOEL ♡🃏⚔️JOEL ♡🃏⚔️2017-10-22I just spent 4 minutes trying to tie a balloon, I’m so pissed 😭 https://scontent.cdninstagram.com/t51.2885-15/e35/22639224_183892728835276_5889396578048802816_n.jpg2017-10-22