737917165773791716572018-10-23The full moon 🌕 is October 24th, no matter what time zone you’re in let’s light a white candle (birthday candles work great and burn quickly!) and put some positive energy out there into the universe. 24 hours of good vibes. Who’s with me? Blessed be ❤️ https://scontent-amt2-1.cdninstagram.com/vp/201150ea1342e97e17e0c033e6cdd178/5C475888/t51.2885-15/e35/43456532_2198916300391654_4669370236490220794_n.jpg2018-10-23
542158057354215805732018-10-23𓆱 I've been waiting for this holiday for months and as it came I got really sick. Part of me is trying to enjoy what I can and push through and the other part of me is so sad because I need this holiday, I can't taste the food, my temperature makes me want to stay in the room with the aircon, and my energy levels are so low.
I was saying to my partner yesterday I realised my mental health has a lot to do with the environment I'm in. When I moved into his I thought everything would be easier - I'd be saving money (on rent and the 4 hour drive to his and home), I'd be closer to him & discovering a new place. I was so wrong! Studying from uni online meant I wasn't going out and interacting with people anymore. Living 45 mins from the beach meant I couldn't just go clear my head and have a swim. I started to gain weight and having no friends meant I wasn't getting out much at all (I do love hanging with myself but you can only do so much of that before you feel the empty).
So yeh, I'm saying this because I noticed I haven't been posting like I did before. Im going through this really weird thing where EVERYONE pisses me off. I don't feel like replying to my family, I don't feel like reply to my best friends, I don't feel like chatting to anyone. I've even been thinking to not log back into overlalunaa and to stop trying to create magic and think of ways to gain followers and crack Instagram algorithms.
If you're going through this? Or have been through it? What helps you connect with yourself again & connect with others? I have never been further from being me or understanding what I am or who I want to be. I hate feeling lost.
Im hurting and I'm crying for help and I need a friend. https://scontent-amt2-1.cdninstagram.com/vp/d24538e9ba5cf7387c6ae2f4498cb823/5C4D234D/t51.2885-15/e35/43349278_2228802997396868_1919302785444223694_n.jpg2018-10-23
542158057354215805732018-10-23 this place is magic https://scontent-amt2-1.cdninstagram.com/vp/e4849bc26de7f8dcc4d0c6f247119b24/5C6C04F2/t51.2885-15/e35/44547621_328561721056765_1155188036358874761_n.jpg2018-10-23